I figured it out...somewhat

Yes, I know. I'm a slacker. I was suppose to write a bit more often in this blog. Suffice to say, I did not. But this is what I was doing...

I was trying to decide if my future career opportunity would flow in the ways of business communications.  After applying to several jobs and having 1 interview, I decided I needed to get more education in communication in order to have a better foundation in it.

So I signed up for an online class at the University of Phoenix.  While I did learn from the class,  I also learned that online classes are not for me (unless I had no other option). I honestly did not retain much information from the class because I was suffering from information overload (too much stuff to learn in only 5 weeks). And there was one other thing...some of my classmates were stupid.  Some of these folks did not understand how to write in the English language. And then there were people who didn't understand that this class was not a cell phone and that using texting shorthand in a classroom environment is a bad thing. And can you say "run on sentences"? I truly fear for the youth of America.

Anyway, I slowly realized that even if I found another job, I really don't like the office environment.  It's too stuffy...I love flexibility and a relaxed schedule. Part of that is because I am a highly sensitive person, but that's another story.

Where does that leave me then? Well, I did realize what I want to do...I want to write. In fact, I've been thinking about this for YEARS. What stopped me from 1) admitting that and 2) getting started in pursuing the writing thing? Fear. Fear of failure, fear of sucking at something, fear at not making my family proud of me...fear, fear, fear. I finally realize this all...so now, it's just an issue of getting started.  I need to start finding any little job (or work for free) that gets my foot in the door. I know I write well, but do I write well enough for people to pay me for it. Time will tell...

I hope you all like bad poetry cause that's what I'm going to expose you to soon...and some pictures I've promised you.

Oh, that's right...I have a blog to write

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry to have neglected you, but I really didn't feel like writing in you for awhile. Part of it was sheer laziness...and I apologize for that. I'm still getting used to the fact that this was what I was meant to do...too many years of forcing myself do do jobs I wasn't meant to do have killed much of my motivation. Another reason is that I come home EXHAUSTED. Sometimes it's a physical exhaustion, but it's been an emotional one more often than not. When I get home, I really just feel like hiding away from the world. Everyone is too loud and too rude and too heartless...it rubs on my raw nerves.

But today I took a mental health day and got some things done so I feel mentally better. And that's why I've come back to you Blog...I haven't forgotten about you...hope you didn't forget about me. You're my last hope for sanity. Well, maybe not my last hope, but you're good for me so I have to pay a bit more attention to you. You'll be happy to hear that I'm planning to take a writing class...as soon as I can get my head wrapped around how to take an online class. Yes, our old friend Fear was slowing things down, but I think he's pretty much wandered off. Just wish these classes didn't cost so much, but I can afford two of them for now.

Well, time for bed. But you'll see me again soon. I recently visited the USS INTREPID (again) and the new 9/11 Memorial so I'll have to write about that and post pictures. Plus Blog, why the heck did Blogger change it's format? It took me 5 minutes to figure out how to get this new blog started! Oh goodness, I hope I can find the spellcheck button.

When the words stop flowing...

In the morning, while I ride the Staten Island Ferry to the island of Manhattan, I think of 10,000 things that I can write about in this blog:

- Oh, that person is overly obese and is eating a donut so I'll write about how our fast and furious society is killing us with easy to eat food
- The bus driver was a real jerk today so I'll write about how the MTA is breeding lazy workers who don't care about people getting to work on time
- Man, I'm absolutely exhausted and need to get more sleep so I'll write about how we all need more sleep
- I'll just write complete nonsense cause that's what I feel like doing
- Bubblegum

Of course when I get to work, I don't have time to write in my blog (nor should I write a blog while at work but that's an entirely different story). 8 hours later and I start the commute home. When I finally do get home, I remember all those ideas but the emotion behind them has faded. My inspiration has disappeared. It's very frustrating. Being exhausted didn't help either. But today I had to write, even if it was about how I didn't feel like writing. I felt like I needed to write something (anything) down just to clear up the clutter in my brain. Just yawned now...I really do need some rest.

To make a long story short, I'm basically making myself addicted to writing things down. That's a good thing - it's forcing my brain to focus my thoughts from a bunch of ideas into words. It's very hard to do it at this very moment, but I think it's getting easier.

I see that I have a few followers (yay) and I thank you. I'll try to make these entries more exciting and your bribes will be arriving in the mail :).

Whole Lotta Shacking Going On and then comes a Hurricane

Yes friends...the east coast was hit by an earthquake on Tuesday.  While I was sitting at my desk, in my paltry office, inside my cage...I mean cubical, the entire office building started to shake. And even though I've experienced earthquakes in Japan (so I know how they feel), my first thought wasn't 'wow, New York City is having an earthquake', it was 'omg, it was a bomb'. Given that the 10th anniversary of 9/11 is coming up, you can understand that we New Yorkers are a bit jumpy.

And now the entire eastern seaboard of the US is being threatened by Hurricane Irene. It's forecasted to come up the coast, like it was following 1-95 North. Crap!!!! This seriously sucks! Well, expect a blog this weekend about how I'm surviving the storm. With pics and video!

What I "love" about natural disasters is that they all become signs of the apocalypse.  The US had two earthquakes in the same day and that means that Judgement Day is just around the corner...I think not. Guess what folks? The earth has quakes all the time. It does not mean God is going to rapture us. If it did, He's way overdue for some rapture stuff.  I made toast the other day and it looked liked the image of St.Thomas Aquinas was burned into it....or I was looking at a piece of toast and I didn't have my glasses on. Either option resulted in me eating the toast.

When you keep looking for signs of the end of the world, I think you miss out that life is meant to be lived. And how you live your life will dictate where you go when the end of the world really does arrive. So go out be good to your fellow man and don't bother worrying about that killer comet that's going to crash into the earth 2 weeks from now and we don't have a Bruce Willis to go up into an experimental next generation space shuttle to save us.

Tranquility Now!

Welcome all!

I know what you're thinking...'it's about time she created the blog'. I've been contemplating this blog for a long time; I finally decided to push my fear aside and just do it. Ah, is this the first little step in a possible new career? Or perhaps this will just be a way I keep myself sane? Yes, I will try to insert a bit of humor into this blog...why? Because I've always thought of funny things to say, but I would never say them (usually). Writing my thoughts down is so freeing!

Okay, time to reign in this little truth fest...this will not be a touchy-feely blog. This blog will be about, well, I'm not sure what this blog will be about. At first, this blog will just be a way to get my thoughts out and exercise my writing ability. Eventually, I'll start writing about my daily observations about life in general (or cartoons) and other random topics. One thing you'll definitely see are my thoughts on the human condition as I observe people on my commute to work in New York City. Yes, weird stuff happens DAILY in New York City so there will not be a lack of crazy stuff to talk about.

Please join me in my tranquil little place and contemplate the world with me.